My wife Saskia was diagnosed with breast cancer in 2003. She underwent breast amputation, chemotherapy, radiation and hormone therapy and later a diep flap breast reconstruction, with tissue from her belly wall.
Early 2018, fifteen years later Saskia’s breast cancer unfortunately returned. Hormone sensitive metastases were found in her belly. It is the best of all bad scenarios. There is no cure yet, but hormone therapy does a good job. With every check-up at the oncologist, her blood values appear to be better and better.
“This quote fully reflects how I feel in life, you live it, you enjoy it. Joy, love and sorrow come your way. Looking back with regret, getting angry about things done doesn’t make much sense, it is ruining your life right now. This certainly does not mean that I am indifferent to life and shrug or even let my shoulders hang. No… .. I go for it and enjoy it to the full. Even now, fifteen years after my first diagnoses when I have been told that breast cancer unfortunately returned and metastases where found in my belly. I don’t want this, of course not. It makes me sad, sure. But even now my emotion is mostly optimistic and positive. As I am writing this it is spring, new life begins but is also perishable. That makes life valuable.”
We celebrate life and I photograph her on instant positive-negative flat film. Because the wet plates technology that I usually use is difficult to take on a trip.